Jag är bara mig

I have a lot of things to touch on today, so I will probably bounce around a lot. I have a tendency to be long-winded at times. I also like to ramble. To make things easier for people who probably don’t want to read everything I have to say, I’m going to break things up a bit. I’m going to put things into categories as they come to mind. There may even be some sub-categories. If it seems like something you want to read, go for it. If not, pass it up. I mostly do this for me anyway.

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ALLISON DANGER VS…
I recently participated in Danger’s new podcast “Danger Versus…” in which she spoke with both me and Mia Yim about – among other things – our upcoming match at ProWrestling SUN. If you haven’t heard the podcast, feel free to listen to it here:
DANGER VS… ON DIVA-DIRT

ASH WALKER
I was slated to defend my RWC FLOW Championship at the beginning of February against Fruity Joose. But Ash incapacitated her before the match, and decided he wanted to try his hand at me again. Once again, he didn’t quite put me down. And Hangtyme “came to the rescue” as some men feel they need to. I really would like to finish things. I feel like there are loose ends that need to be tied up. On a semi-related note, I will be the special guest referee in May for the RWC Heavyweight Title Match between Ash and Hangtyme. This should make things very interesting…

BULLYING
When I was in school, I got made fun of a lot because of the way that I talked. So I learned to fit in. I can do it whenever necessary. But as I get older and wiser, I don’t care so much about fitting in. Why blend in when you can stand out? As I said, I’m older and wiser now. And nobody is going to bully me anymore. Bullying is childish.

FAMILY
I went to my sister’s baby shower in February. Or rather, I threw her a baby shower. We had a good turnout. I spent a few days down in Tampa, FL for this. I love my family, and it was great to see them. I wish min pappa could’ve been there though. I haven’t seen him since last summer. I really miss him. Maybe I’ll get to see him this year. I’m keeping my fingers crossed. I’m going to be an aunt at the end of next month. I’m excited to meet my future nephew.

FEBRUARY
February really flew by. I know a lot of people call it a “short month.” But, really, it’s not THAT much shorter than the other months. It still has the same number of weeks. So why is it, then, that it seems to fly by? I don’t know. But mine really did.

ICE CREAM
I love ice cream; especially of the Ben & Jerry variety. I LOVE it. And I won’t give up having some every now and again to obtain that “perfect” body that I know isn’t in the cards for me. True story.

INK
I want another tattoo. Actually, I have about 3 or 4 in my head I want to get. But they’ll have to wait a while longer. *nods*

MIA YIM
As I’m sure you’ve realized by now, I have a match against Mia Yim this Sunday at ProWrestling SUN in Jackson, NJ. I can’t wait. Because of her, I ended up with a cracked rib last September. This started the process of keeping me out of the ring for a couple months. This was followed by more time out of the ring due to a knee injury. Because of Yim, I missed out on almost 4 months of wrestling. Some speculate that I may have fallen behind. But once the doctor gave me clearance, I was back at the gym and rebuilding my strength. I spent more time than I care to admit preparing to face her again. I managed to convince Allison Danger to give me this match. It’s time for Yim to learn a lesson. She put me out. Had I not had the passion for this sport that I do, she may have killed my desire to compete. While I was ordered to bed rest, she was wrestling names such as Del Rey, Haze, Social, Craft and many others. I had to sit by and watch her shine while I was stuck on my ass, unable to do anything. Am I bitter about this? You could say that. I’m mentally ready for Sunday. I’m ready to face off against Yim. I’m going to make her scream. I’m going to hurt her. She’s going to learn what it’s like to be put down.

MOSTER J
Min Moster J is one of the greatest women I know. She inspires me. *nods*

KELLIE SKATER
I have a match against the Rate Tank, Kellie Skater, this Saturday in Burlington, NC at CWF/ArenaChicks. I’m really looking forward to this match. I’ve never had a match against Skater before, but I hear she’s quite the challenge. Rumor has it that she’s indestructible, her bones are made of adamantium, and she takes something called roo-roids to keep her strong. I don’t know the validity of any of that, but it does make me a bit nervous. For those of you that have seen her in action, you know she’s an amazing wrestler. She’s strong, quick, and clever. But I’ve been training really hard. I’m ready to step up my game and take on the Rate Tank. I know I can hang. I’m looking forward to taking her on and proving to everyone that I’m not playing around.

PAINTING
I love painting. I didn’t know this until recently. I love creating something out of nothing, so I suppose it stems from that desire. And I love beauty. Creating something beautiful is amazing. And painting is actually quite therapeutic. I don’t like my instructor telling me “do this, do that.” That’s a load of BS to me. Painting comes from within. What I see as beautiful, others may not. And I’m okay with that.

POST-PODCAST PONDERINGS
If you follow me on Twitter, or are my friend on FB, you probably already know this. But I’m going to address it again. Only now that I’m not limited to 160 characters, I can elaborate a bit more. Let’s set things straight, shall we?

Yes, I’m a bit heavy. I’m not super-toned. I don’t have mega-muscles. And I will never be skinny. It’s not in my genetic code. But I work out and do my best to stay in shape. If this makes me a cow, so be it. In the words of Tracie Thoms in Death Proof, although in a different context: “Moooo, muthafucka! Moo!”

Yes, I don’t have a lot of money. I’ll often wear similar gear. I’m not rich, nor do I pretend to be. I spend my money on other things: rent, bills, food (moooo), a gym membership, etc. Gear, unfortunately, is a bit lower on the list for me. Do I like shiny new gear? Of course I do! But it’s not my priority. Training is. Being in shape is. Do I need shiny new outfits to showcase in every match I do? No, I don’t. My talent speaks for itself.

As an aside – my gear costs a little more because it actually has enough fabric to color all of my naughty-bits.

I’m not the prettiest girl in the world. But I’m far from the end of the spectrum. I’m happy with who I am. I’m comfortable in my own skin. You don’t like it? I don’t care.

Here’s the deal. I’d say I’m your average girl, but that would be a lie. I’m real. I’m all natural. I’m awesome. I’m happy with who I am. If you can’t handle it: sod off. I don’t need you.

SCHOOL
School is still going well. I’m maintaining a 4.0. Or at least, I was until now. I might get a B in one of my classes. This bothers me. But if I do, then I do. I’ll just have to keep working hard and try to bring things back to where I want them. School has been quite stressful for me this semester. My schedule has been very hectic. I feel like I don’t have enough time to get everything done. A lot of times I rush my homework assignments. I struggle to find the hours to sleep. I’m keeping my head above water, but some days I feel like I’m about to drown. When this happens, I keep my head up and push forward. On the bright side, school has helped me to find a passion I didn’t know I had…

TRAINING
People have gotten onto me as of late because I’ve had some weight gain. You know what? Deal with it. My weight doesn’t reflect my wrestling ability. Yes, I’ve put on a few pounds. But guess what? That tends to happen when you’re in the ring with someone careless, and end up with an injury. Next thing you know, you’re out of commission for a few months. You can’t get in any cardio because it hurts to breathe and then your knee gets jacked up. These things happen. Yeah, I’ve put on a few pounds. But you know what? I’m still awesome.

WRITING
I miss writing… a lot. I really should blog more. I have a lot to say at time. But I actually would like to move forward on my book. I may start this up shortly, as I’ll be restricted to the websites I can visit while I’m at work. I guess the one good thing that will come from this is finally sitting down and getting it out.

YOUTUBE CHANNEL
I’m contemplating starting my own YouTube channel. I haven’t decided for sure yet, though. I have a lot of ideas swirling around in my head. This channel wouldn’t be totally wrestling related. It would be Mia-related. Awesome things I do and whatnot. I’m already contemplating doing a vid of Mia vs. The Tree – part 2. There is not part 1 vid, but it’s already happened so the moment has passed. I think this would be a way for people to get to learn more about me. Any thoughts from the peanut gallery?

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I’m sure I missed a bunch of stuff. But hey – that’s why I have a blog. I can keep adding as I see fit. After all is said and done, yes, I went back and alphabetized my blog. You can take the girl out of the library, but you can’t take the library out of the girl.